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Pressing the Play Button

Ray,

I find myself sitting in front of a blank page here trying to get myself to write something else. Something that doesn’t have to do with me missing you, wishing you were here, trying to picture you in my mind, trying to think about “what would Ray Ray do?” but it’s so hard. I miss you and everything about you. Thanks to our friends, we’re all getting through it together. Some days are easier than others, but we’re all there for each other. I know you would’ve wanted that. Last week was really tough for me specifically. Not sure why, except maybe because we had to face the harsh reality of the live show on Wednesday without you. We were all terrified, I was so heart broken to even be thinking about this. But your family came to the show last week as our special guests, it was so good to have them there. We even got them on the mic! We played “What would you do for a million dollars?” and they came up with some good ones! You’d be so proud, love.

This week, I’m trying to conduct life as normal. I hit the pause button on life for the past 3 weeks. I couldn’t eat, I couldn’t sleep, I couldn’t work, I couldn’t be alone…all I wanted to do was think about you, be with loved ones, and try to keep from crying. I just wanted to do the bare minimum of what was expected of me. There’s a hole in my heart where your love used to be, and I’ve been trying to fill it back up with all the wonderful memories we’ve had together. You’ve done so much for me, Ray. I wouldn’t be where I am today without your love, support, and belief in me. I keep replaying so many memories in my head when I actually give myself time to think, and there’s one specific one that sticks out in my mind that gets me through this week.

I called you on my way home from work one day like I sometimes do. I called to tell you about the new product that AMN was going to start developing and to tell you how proud I was of you and the Traklife team. It’s sometimes hard for me to talk about emotions but I wanted you to know that day for some reason that you and your team were doing a fabulous job. Erv and I didn’t have to worry about the future of Traklife, you guys hit the ground running. You created something so special with so little direction and it was running itself with very little of my guidance. I was so

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proud of you and wanted you to know it.

I specifically remember the moment you told me. I was in my car turning onto Lurline in the left turn lane while the sun was beaming on my face. You told me that you were so happy to be part of the fam. You told me that if anyone else had approached you with the idea you would’ve had to take time and think about it more. But because it was Charlie and I, you immediately said yes. You told me that you believed in us and knew that if you had an opportunity to go into business with us you would.

Thank you for that moment, Raymond. Thank you for believing in us. Replaying that memory and remembering your voice helps me continue to press play on life. The times when I don’t want to or don’t know if I can, I’ll always remember you, your optimistic attitude, and you yearn to do the absolute best that you can do. Thank you for being a continuing inspiration for us all. I love you and I miss you.

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iPhone 5 and Device Updates

So many things are happening, some exciting and new!

With last week’s release of the iPhone 5 we have our Compact Cases and Vibe cases available for the iPhone 5. All designs are available for purchase starting TODAY! Yay! Those of you that are lucky enough to preorder the iPhone 5 (BOO, I’m not eligible for an upgrade until Nov. 16th) you can order yours today and get it shortly after you phone comes in! We still have cases available for the 3 series and 4 series as well. And of course, our iPad cases are still around. We’ve got some great upgrades for those as well!

Our Hard Covers got a nice small upgrade. These cases are now smart covers and will turn the case on and off when you flip it open and closed.

Our Folio Cases have a new upgrade as well. Check out M-Edge’s video on the capabilities.

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It’s been 1 Week

Raymundo,

It’s been exactly 1 week since you’ve left us. All of us miss you so much, but we’re getting stronger and stronger day by day. That’s all thanks to your fighting spirit that is living within us. I think about you constantly, Ray. This has been the hardest week I’ve ever had to endure. I just wanted to be near you always. I didn’t want to have to picture you in my head for the rest of my life. I wanted to see you, hold your hand. give you a big hug, make fun of you, and talk about our dreams like we always did.

Honestly, it’s so hard. It’s so hard for all of us to be strong constantly. I cry to you every single day. But your family is such an inspiration. They have been so strong through all of this. They’ve been there for us, your friends, from the moment we heard the bad news. I hope that our presence has given them even a fraction of comfort through this tough time for them. They love you so much Ray, so SO much.

I keep replaying in my mind what happened last week on Tuesday. It was a day we would never forget. I was sitting at the office with Charlie. And I see your face pop up on my phone. I answer with my regular “HELLOOOOOOOOOOOOO…?!?” and start laughing. I thought you were calling me to ask if I was already at the office like you always do, you knew we had a meeting. And then I heard sniffles on the other end. Sniffles that didn’t sound like yours. It was Ate Bing, telling me the news that would change our lives forever. I dropped everything. If I wasn’t sitting down I would have dropped to my knees. Charlie had this look on his face as I began to cry, a look of what happened!? When I mouthed “Ray Ray” to him, his face completely changed but I still don’t think he was prepared to hear what I was about to tell him. I began to sob and told your sister we would leave right away. My cries and heavy tears were enough for Charlie to know the news. I could barely get myself to tell him. We dropped everything, packed up our stuff, left the office and got to the hospital as fast as we could. I was numb Ray. I was in shock, in denial, I was angry, I was sad…I was numb. I was so overwhelmed with what was happening. I was overwhelmed with my surroundings. I hadn’t been at that hospital since the night I slept over to keep you company. That was almost 3 years ago. The last time I sat in that lobby was with you. It was where you always went to get some sun, and we would sit together in that lobby and talk about the future.

I keep replaying memories in my mind. When we biked 10 miles, the night I spent with you at the hospital, VENT rehearsals, the night before you left for Seattle, our Skype sessions, when we had lunch at Stacked and ordered so much food, when we bet on how long it would take you to get from my house to Redondo, when you’d do your “Rihanna” dance, the bachelor/bachelorette weekend, our wedding, hearing the song you guys created for us for the first time, our drives to the Assemble office with Jan Jan sleeping in the back seat, Vegas for Project…Ray Ray there are just so many. There are so many with your other family and friends too, I honestly don’t know how you fit us all in your schedule. After all, there are only 24 hours in a day. But I’m so glad you did.

I’m never going to stop writing to you, Raymond. I know you’re reading this and I feel you with me watching over me always. It gives me comfort that you never have to leave my side ever again. We all have you to talk to whenever we want. I love you, Ray. I love you.