A girl's journey through entrepreneurship
Happy 2016 to you all! I hope this year brings much happiness.
I’m knee deep in work today (I know, working on New Year’s Day) but I wanted to share some love for all of you! I’ve got a free printable that fits right into your CO Fitness Journals and every month I’ll be sharing them here for you to download! Just click on the image below to get your January calendar!
Having self confidence is one of the hardest things for me. Looking back I don’t think I’ve ever felt happy with my abilities or appearance. I’ve struggled with always thinking I wasn’t enough. Wishing I was walking in someone else’s shoes. Today is no different but I fight to see that I have something to offer. That being me is good enough, maybe even great.
Life is hard. There are so many things out there that crush your spirits and rid you of your self esteem. And we all have to admit, some days it defeats us and other days we’re victorious.
We live in a day where we are at the mercy of our own self esteem. Social media has us at its teet seeking approval from others on the Internet or otherwise sharing what we normally wouldn’t while hiding behind a computer screen. Computers and mobile devices have changed the way we now communicate with others. People are losing personal interaction, eye contact, and would rather see what others are accomplishing or doing instead of being in the moment.
It’s not that I hate social media, don’t get me wrong. It’s great for business and I love being able to see what friends and family are up to – especially the ones that are far away or the old friends I have from elementary school and high school. That is special. Being able to know they are living their lives is comforting. But it all has its limits.
These last few months some things have happened that has changed my perspective on the world. It has taken my self esteem down a peg or two because it has reminded me that I can’t fix everything. And though that shouldn’t effect my self esteem it does cuz I’m a problem solver. I can’t solve this problem it makes me feel absolutely horrible. Social media doesn’t help with all this.
What I have learned because of this situation is that I want to be present in the present. I do not and cannot live in the “what if” any longer. It has grounded me in my own humbleness and is helping me with the idea that I am who I am. It reminds me there is no point in wishing to be in a different place or wishing I was dealt different cards in life. I am here and I am alive in this moment and I’m going to make sure I live it.
Just a short 10 years ago I had a quote that defined my life, “I am who I am, and that’s all I want to be.” Somewhere down the line I lost that. I went back to my young adolescent self that was so unsure of herself and wanted everyone to like her. But as days go by, I am reminded that today this is who I am. Whether that be broken or put together. And that’s ok.
I hope that you all had a wonderful Thanksgiving full of love, family, and friends. I hope you had some time to relax before the craziness that is the holidays.
Growing up, my family always got together for lunch/dinner. Yes, that’s right. Lunch/dinner. We’d have a potluck. Everyone would volunteer to bring something, my uncle would make the turkey, and as I got older I’d make pies. Last year, we changed it up a little bit and went to Vegas to visit my aunts, uncles, and cousins that live there. It was fun last year. I got to spend time with family, hang out with my cousins who I don’t get to see often enough..Charlie’s family even came too.
Our Thanksgiving was weird this year. It was supposed to be Vegas Thanksgiving Pt. II. We booked our flights to Vegas months ago. My parents had left for Vegas the Tuesday before Thanksgiving at 4:30 in the morning and we were going to fly in on Wednesday night. But unfortunately, Charlie got sick on Tuesday night. We were hoping he’d be well enough by the time of our flight to go but by the time Wednesday hit he was even worse.
We decided to cancel our flight last minute so that Charlie could rest. It was our first Thanksgiving away from family, both sides. I made some strawberry pie and my mom’s beef stroganoff from when I was a kid. I made Charlie a mud pie for when he felt better. Those dishes remind me of a simpler time and brought me some comfort.
Yes, I ate the pie by myself. #sorrynotsorry lol!
Charlie and I played some of our favorite old school Nintendo games. Charlie offered to play Bubble Bobble with me, my all time favorite game. Took us 2 days to beat it just cuz we were getting frustrated that we would die and have to start over haha! Playing the retro video games with Charlie was so much fun. We couldn’t stop screaming and laughing! Note: old school video games are hard! Most don’t have save points, especially the really old ones.
Even though it was an unexpected Thanksgiving it was still a great one. Wouldn’t trade it for anything.