Best Friends are Hard to Come By

This blog has been silent for the past couple weeks. I just couldn’t get myself to write anything. I’ve been thinking about why, and I think it’s been because every time I write something it seems to make things concrete, more real. Maybe I just wasn’t ready to face the fact that this is now our reality. See 2 weeks ago, I lost my best friend.

Missed my boy

Best friends are so hard to come by. My friend shared with me a metaphor for friendship that has really stuck with me, “Would you have 100 pennies or 4 quarters?” Personally, I want 4 quarters. I’m the type that loves people. I have this want, this passion for connecting with others. I treat my friends like I do my family, something that my mom instilled in me at a young age. As an only child, my friends growing up were like sisters to me. My high school and college friends became family. In 2004, Charlie adopted our first dog Baxter and instantly became part of our family. 

Charlie adopted this cutie from the local shelter. I never visited the shelter he was from but Charlie told me that he was the dog that would hide and shiver in the back corner when he saw people walking by. Baxter actually had a brother in the same kennel as him, and you can tell his brother was the alpha dog. This boy needed a home, a home that would love him. So the day after Christmas in 2004, we brought him home.

Baxter wasn’t the friendliest dog when it came to people. He was extremely territorial and protective. But when he knew you weren’t a threat, he was your best friend for life. He loved you with all his heart and would cry for a good 5 minutes whenever you’d come home. He was a healthy dog and aside from his yearly shots we never had to take him to the vet. He loved the finer things in life like a good steak or salmon. He loved a good treat or toy and would cry as he was walking around with it because he loved it so much and didn’t know what to do with it.

He was my best friend. He would comfort me and kiss my tears when he saw me crying. I would talk to him about all kinds of things, as if he could understand the complexities of life. He would keep me company when Charlie wasn’t home. He would lay next to me while I work, watch TV, eat, pretty much as long as I’m home we were inseparable.

Look at these cute pups relaxing in the sun!

At the ripe old age of 15, we had to put him to sleep. I can’t believe it has been 2 weeks since we had to say goodbye. Poor Evee, I feel like she’s been struggling with it the most. She loved Baxter, absolutely adored him. Our family of 4 (Charlie, me, Baxter, and Evee) is now a family of 3 and we’re continuing to adjust as we try to move forward. We’re trying to find what the new daily routine will now be like.

Every day has been a struggle for the past 2 weeks, but every day it gets a little less hard. I can’t really say better, the hurt continues but we try to take it day by day.

I miss you, Baby Boy! You changed our lives for the better, and we had 15 wonderful years with you. I’m glad we were able to give you a home, a family that loved you. I hope we enriched your life as much as you did ours.


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Merry Christmas to you! Being Honest

Merry Christmas everyone! I hope your holidays have been full of family, friends, love, and grace of Jesus Christ. This month I have much to be thankful for, but that will be another post in a couple weeks. πŸ™‚

I have to be honest with you, this holiday has been extremely hard for me. I’ve been trying really hard to have some Christmas spirit and for the most part it’s been a happy holiday season. Like I said, I’ve made many memorable memories this Christmas so I’m extremely thankful. But truth be told it’s been hard. This time last year was a whirlwind of emotions. This time last year was the last opportunity I really got to spend time with my mom and dad, in my childhood home, and us together. Just us, no one else. Even then, I tried to be happy but it was hard. For me, this was the beginning of the end.

This is my first holiday without my mom and my dad is now living in the Philippines. The words that probably sum up this year has had to be “change” or “adapt” for me. I miss my mom dearly. I think back on these days last year constantly. A time when I could hold my mom’s hand, give her a hug, and buy her a candle for Christmas like I always do. After this photo my mom’s health took a turn for the worse, I had to speak at my mom’s funeral, we sold my childhood home, and my dad moved to the Philippines.

But it’s ok, because life moves on. God got me. And regardless of whether she’s here or not she has shaped me into the woman I am today. Since I started working at her real estate office a lot of her old colleagues keep telling me I look like her, especially when I smile. It warms my heart every time. And this season I am making a commitment to myself to never forget but to move forward. More on that later πŸ˜‰

Like I said, Merry Christmas everyone! If there is anything I’ve learned from these past 3 years it’s hold your loved ones close, make an effort to show them how much you mean to them, tell them you love them often, never take them for granted, make memories, and always smile no matter how down you are. Trust me, you’ll thank me later. I’ll be doing that this weekend and in the weeks to come.


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Seattle Recap

A few months ago, I randomly text Charlie and my brothers-in-law and asked if they wanted to go on a mini vacay. On a whim, we all decided to go to Seattle for a weekend trip. I was excited to go. I haven’t been to Seattle in about 20 years! And to go with my family that’s never been made this trip even more special.

Charlie and I had to get up really early on Friday. Ok, not reallyΒ early. But early enough. I’m not much of a morning person even though I try to be. The earliest I’ll get up and be pleasant is 8:00 lol. We arrived around lunch time and my cousin, Jon, picked us up.


First stop was what else but food. He took us to a place called Lunchbox Laboratory. Charlie and I split their lamb burger and tater tots. OMG – Yum!


We checked into our hotel and hung out for a bit before heading out to see the Space Needle. We took a short monorail ride there and got to walk around and explore for a bit. The weather was absolutely gorgeous the entire weekend! I heard we brought the sunny weather from LA. πŸ™‚




Next up – the Space Needle. I didn’t think I’d be as nervous as I was. But the moment the elevator started going up and seeing that view. My stomach fell to the floor! The views were absolutely gorgeous though!



Every time these guys would hang their phones over the edge gave me butterflies in my stomach! I had to walk away some times just so the butterflies would go away haha!


This picture was one of my favorites. I had to zoom in a little so excuse the picture quality. But that “floating mountain” as we called it was such a magical thing to see from atop of the Space Needle. Mt. Rainier was such a sight to see.





The next day we did more sight seeing. Pike Market, the gum wall (eww), the original Starbucks…if you love cheese go visit Beecher’s! Delicious!



We went to go visit UW and got to see the gorgeous campus and this architectural gem.


We also headed to Gasworks Park. What a gorgeous view of the city. It was a beautiful day and there were tons of people picnic’ing, throwing frisbees, and hanging out.gasworks_park_view2


Everyone was recommending that we visit Dick’s Hamburgers while we were there, and it did NOT disappoint!


We got to have dinner with my aunt and uncle that live a few minutes away from the city. I hadn’t been to their house since I was 8 years old. They made us a home cooked meal – it was delicious! We got to do a little shopping, visited Kerry Park to see the city lights at night, and played some games at Gameworks across the street from our hotel. The next day we had brunch at Ivar’s. OMG, if you go to Seattle I definitely recommend their brunch!!!

What an awesome trip. It was good to just hang out, have no agenda, and explore a new city. Can’t wait to visit again! πŸ™‚



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