Accepting yourself for who you are is no easy task. The faults, the beautiful quirks, the pet peeves, the obsessions…there is so much that goes into making a person unique. One of the hardest things I still struggle with is accepting who I am and being proud of it. I don’t know if I will ever be able to say that I am comfortable in my own skin, but what I do know is that I’m going to continue to be the best me that I can be. And I think that starts with starting to really investigate my inner self. Start to make decisions to better myself. Moreover, sticking with those decisions and actually taking action.
…a woman of God.
…an event designer.
…a graphic designer.
I am not…
…a little girl.
I have to thank my parents for this outlook on life. My parents never settled for anything. They didn’t care about being like everyone else. They have always been risk-takers in their own way. Even though I thought I wanted to be the farthest thing from that, turns out I am becoming just like them.
My life post-college has been a “mish-mash” of things. I worked different jobs and in different industries. I thought this was me being lost, not knowing what I wanted to do with my life. I thought this was me just trying to find a way to pay the bills. At times I also thought that those jobs were where I would probably end up, that I should just settle for those jobs because I was good at them. But I realize now that it was where I was supposed to be, but to learn from. Every job I took helped shape my career and my pursuit of true greatness. Though I still feel very “green” sometimes I’ve seen myself grow in so many different ways. When I first started I had a different outlook on what I defined as “greatness.” Through all the learning experiences I’ve come to realize that I’m not as much of a novice as I thought I was. What I am, though, is a learner. And I’m never going to stop learning.
I’ve learned that life is too short and we need to do what we’re passionate about NOW. I’m not going to lie – it will be hard, there will be TONS of challenges, some days you’ll be ready to take on the world, other days you’ll feel like you want to crawl under a rock. But I promise, the reward is well worth it! I.PROMISE!
I’ve also come to find that being good at something doesn’t mean you’re meant to do it. I want to be GREAT at what I do. And to me, the difference is the passion. If work will encompass 80% of my life, you better believe that I’m going to do something that fires me up!
I hope everyone out there realizes their true passion. Nothing out there is ever “too far off” or unrealistic. IT.IS. POSSIBLE. Don’t try to be like everyone else, try to be you. That might be the harder route, but it’s the better route. Don’t worry about how much money you’ll make. It’s ok to find a way to pay the bills. It’s ok to work multiple jobs to help fund your passion. But try not to think about the amount of the end result. I know that’s a hard concept to swallow, it was difficult for me too. But with true passion comes true greatness. It will come if you’re truly passionate about it. Wealth isn’t in the money, it’s in the experience.
Charlie and I were working all last weekend. We were sitting side-by-side in our office working on our own projects, asking for each other’s opinions, getting things done…SUCH a good feeling! At one moment during the weekend I remember looking at him and taking in that moment. Seeing him so dedicated, so engulfed, so passionate was such an inspiration. He takes on a lot and cannot imagine how he finds a way to do it all. But he does and I’m so proud.
I’m so thankful for him. Having a husband that encourages me, understands me, supports me, and knows me better than I know myself is more than anything I could have ever asked for. The times are good and bad, but because of him and the guidance of our faith I’ve found strength in both cases. No matter which direction our journey takes us, I know enduring it together gives me the confidence I need.
Today, I feel more than ready to take on that journey. I’m excited, I’m humbled, and I’m ready.
Thank you, Charlie. Thank you so much.